This has been a rough month for me. "God, I trust in YOU, because I know you are refining me in major ways."
It began back in January (probably earlier than that -however,) when I realized that I was quite tired almost all the time -- this was not a "normal-mom-of-four-little-girls" kind of tired. It was extreme fatigue. I basically ignored the symptoms. And it began to become increasingly worse. I was even more forgetful, in a fog most of the time, suffering with depression, and increased fatigue. I felt overwhelmed and stressed with most of "life"... I was being pushed over the edge with my health. I was not taking care of me. Therefore, not being able to truly take care of my family either. I kept pushing on... but, I knew that sooner or later I would have to comes to terms with my health.
I have not really had a regular Doctor for sometime. It is so hard to find a Doctor that you really trust, feel comfortable sharing details to, and also that in turn they understand what you are dealing with. Plus, I did not want to go to a Doctor just to be pushed towards conventional medicines that would end up just masking the situation. In years past, I had a Doctor (homeopathic, certified nutritionist) whom I LOVED...but, he was no longer working in my area. sigh.
I ended up going to another "natural" Doctor recommended by a friend. I was nervous. God showed up to comfort me. However, I felt during the conversation that my outcome was computer generated from my saliva and urine samples...plugged in... and then given some "stuff'' that most likely all his patients get.
Well, I think taking the stuff just pushed my body to the end. My body went into a full blown flare-up that weekend. I was miserable and on the verge of going to the ER several times. We don't have health insurance for me, so I resisted going.... I was in bed for almost 3 days.
For those of you that don't know. I suffer from CROHN's DISEASE. I was diagnosed in the year of 2000. I maintained in remission for 9 years through diet. Two years after my 3rd child was born, I had a flare-up. I had to be put on medication and then was able to maintain again through diet. I got pregnant again and did fine. But, soon I was not eating healthy and not taking care of myself. Lack of exercise, unhealthy eating, stress, etc. ... And wo years after my 4th baby, I have again suffered from a Crohn's flare-up.
It is a very frustrating disease. Though, I know that God is my Emmanuel -- with me. And, he is also my Healer!! Right now, I am just taking it one day at a time. Finding my limits. Learning to say No. Resting Lots. And, trying to be the best Mommy and Wife I can under these circumstances.
Hope to keep you updated as often as I can.
So, here are some pictures of just a little bit about what is going on here in the Lil Daisies world.
CELEBRATING MY AUDRIA's 2nd BIRTHDAY * HUBBY B-DAY TOO!