I have missed you all -- even those I have not yet met. (grin)
As I have reflected back at my year of 2011, it really has been a whirlwind of a year. I have to say that it was a year of overloading with activities, busyness, distraction, heaviness. In most cases, it was a blur because I was probably TOO busy trying to accomplish the next task that was on my to-do list. The feeling of "behind" was a common occurance in my heart. Many times I felt like a failure, anxiety would set in, frustration and depression would get the better of me. I was really not doing what I wanted to do or what God desired of me as a wife, mother, friend...
Don't get me wrong - it was not a terrible year. I was blessed in so many ways - we have a roof over our head, a business that is starting to burst, food to delight our tummies.... I can't complain for the many blessings God gave us in 2011, but it was also a year to reflect and see how I needed to "let go" and "let God be" within my life.
Now, I have come to a NEW YEAR -- (Welcome 2012) As this is the time for the usual resolutions or "goals" - whatever you may call it, I have felt that God has spoken to my heart in a different light for this year. Instead of goals or resolutions or list of things to accomplish or fail, etc. I am going to be more intentional in my walk of life and journey --and going to focus on a word and scripture for the year.
I think the Lord is nudging me to stop with my list of expectations upon myself - but rather just go deep into HIS arms and word for my life.
Ack! Now, how scary is that? To some of you probably not so scary. But, for me to just "let go" of my lists and goals is hard. To be completely focused on a word and scripture that God is giving to me, is (I am ashamed to admit) a little daunting, nerve racking.
Yes, it is a step of faith for me.
However, I am excited to behold what the Lord has planned for me and my family this year. I am coming to this place in my journey with an expectancy NOT expectations.
So, I have been praying intensely over the last few weeks asking God,
"What is Your desire for me this year?"
He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God ~ Micah 6:8
"And now, Israel, what does the LORD your God require of you? He requires only that you fear the LORD your God, and live in a way that pleases him, and love him and serve him with all your heart and soul. ~ Deuteronomy 10:12
These were just two of the verses that God placed upon my heart. As I started from these two verses, I began to discover more encouragement-- I just love how GOD moves you into another scripture and then leads you to another, and another.... it is just so beautiful how God's WORD speaks like that.... I could have shared a ton more verses with you, but I knew that this was the starting point for me. These were the two verses that God needed me to meditate on first and delve deep into.
There were also 2 words that he placed upon my heart for this year. Interestingly enough these two words were brought out through these verses.
This year begins a journey -- A WALK into what the Lord is requiring for me. I really think these two words are tied into each other and wrapped around each other like a big pretzel salty pretzel! I like that word picture. WALK makes me think of many things - a journey, a type of exercise (healthy living), a path or steps to learning something new. And WORSHIP is a way of life -- a walk that I want to display within my entire being.
As I seek HIM, I hope to find how these two words (WALK & WORSHIP) will play into my life -- as well as how these two verses (Micah 6:8, Deuteronomy 10:12) will change and grow my heart and mind for this year.
I will of course, share parts of this journey with you..... and I hope you will stay with me and blessed.
Share with me -- Does God have a word for you this year? What about a scripture? If not, maybe you can take sometime to SEEK what the LORD REQUIRES of you for this year? I would love to hear from you.